So What Next?

Who did I feel safe sharing this with, and what was bothering me about letting others know. I heard some responses like, ‘Wow, so what next?’ or ‘Wow, so now you can get on with your life!’ Even though they were all in my head, I knew they required exploration…

Her Shadow – Soul Writing

I wrote Her Shadow on the 29th of January 2014, and it is heartening for me to read back over it now and realise how much has changed for me in mind, body and spirit, especially the decrease in pain with a fistula.

Endings and new beginnings…

Death beckoned at my door with his arms wide open, a slight smile on his face. I stood. What else was there to do with his presence so full, right there in my space? It’s not your life I’m here for, he said…

Releasing Fear: EFT in the Bathtub

I feel the disquiet in my being today. I’m unsettled and my mind is scattered and wandering. It’s harder to be present to the way the clouds are changing shape or the deep rich smell of the freesias every time I walk past them on the table. A post about exploring those feelings and releasing fear with EFT.

Hormonal Imbalance – Is it getting you down?

Did you know that hormonal imbalance is at the root of so many things that feel out of balance for women (and men)? From dry, chapped lips, to internal rage, weight retention to fuzzy brain, anxiety to depression…the list goes on…

Hope – Four Years Ago

This time four years ago I was discharged from Whangarei Hospital to come ‘home’ to celebrate a friend’s 30th who had driven up from Auckland. I explore emotions and the hope that kept me grounded and moving forward.

Artist Residency in Healing – Shadows

I look up and see those shadows on the fridge. This means the sun is dipping behind the trees, it ‘s time to move from the couch…to witness this change of light.

Artist Residency in Healing

After reading about the artist residency in motherhood I felt inspired to explore some options for myself. What do you do when you would love to go and get creative in an inspirational space just for artists, but you’re stuck at home? In my case on a healing journey, house bound by health circumstances…

Navigating losses and gains

Tino is lying down beside me as I start my tapping/counselling session and I feel a pang of pain and loss. Oscar didn’t get to do this with me. I feel it in my chest and throat. I didn’t know what we’d talk about this session, but now I know where we can go…

How much do you say?

How much do you say to people when they ask you: How are you? Or how much do you divulge when you’re explaining why you won’t be…going to dinner…attending a catch up…gong surfing today when you usually love it…going to someone’s wedding…

I know you – a letter from me…

You see I know you better than anyone else in this world. I always have and I always will, you just didn’t realise. I don’t need to sympathise or empathise with you, I just know.

Navigating Relationships through Health Hiccups

This time 8 years ago Harlan and I were on a plane to Australia. We had adventure under our feet and the vast unknown ahead. Here I reflect on navigating relationships, especially with chronic health hiccups in the picture.