Please tell me…

Today, just hold me. Gently take my head and rest it on your soft warm chest. Let me hear your heart beat and know that I’m home. Let me breathe in the smells of that comfort. I don’t know what to do next. I don’t know what to think.

The Desperation to be ‘Fixed’!

Desperation was my driving force, my momentum for the first 2 ½ years on this journey with a fistula. Every possibility, every magic pill, potion and lotion I would dive at it, desperation fuelling my direction, my hope. I searched, tirelessly for natural cures, balms, miracle stories on the internet and the next wonder worker in New Zealand, heck in the world. Then slowly a change happened…

The Fear Surrounding a Surgeon Appointment

Surgeons like performing surgery, and so asking them about anything that a) isn’t orthodox and b) isn’t about surgery, makes me feel nervous. Sometimes getting clear can make all the difference…

When your buttons are pushed…

When we react from a space of a pushed button, usually we simply fuel an equally out of control reaction from the other person and so we both get caught up in a whirpool of emotions, stories and events that are running us both and powering our respective buttons…

All these expectations

What does society expect of you? What do you expect from yourself? Are your expectations out of alignment with reality? Do you create expectations that are always higher and higher? Be gentle with yourself…

On the outside

A place we sometimes put ourselves without realising!

Am I doing enough?

Am I doing enough? I find myself questioning as I sit with my back against the wall in our bedroom gently tapping on my EFT points. This spiral of questioning hasn’t plagued me for a while…

I had a dream: losing and finding dreams

A reflection on losing and finding dreams you may not have even know you had…

Ever still wonder what you want to be when you ‘grow up’?

A little exercise to help you get clear about what to do…whether it’s for now or when you grow up!

Balancing business and a body breakdown…Bee Sensual

My journey of finding balance between a new business and addressing a body breakdown, and the lessons I have learned along the way and continue to…

Showing kindness to your body…

It’s so easy when our bodies hurt or play up to feel frustrated and annoyed with that part of our body, or to simply pop a pill that removes the niggle. Maybe we could take these niggles as an opportunity to actually listen to our body and offer it some love and kindness instead?

Finding gentleness among stress…

Everyone has a lot on their plate, but when you start telling yourself it’s too much to cope with, you can’t possibly get it done in time, it won’t be good enough, what will other people think, it will be a total failure, I couldn’t possibly do that, I’m no good…and on it goes…I believe that’s when normal life challenges turn into super stressful situations.