Artist Residency in Healing

After reading about the artist residency in motherhood I felt inspired to explore some options for myself. What do you do when you would love to go and get creative in an inspirational space just for artists, but you’re stuck at home? In my case on a healing journey, house bound by health circumstances…

Navigating losses and gains

Tino is lying down beside me as I start my tapping/counselling session and I feel a pang of pain and loss. Oscar didn’t get to do this with me. I feel it in my chest and throat. I didn’t know what we’d talk about this session, but now I know where we can go…

How much do you say?

How much do you say to people when they ask you: How are you? Or how much do you divulge when you’re explaining why you won’t be…going to dinner…attending a catch up…gong surfing today when you usually love it…going to someone’s wedding…

I know you – a letter from me…

You see I know you better than anyone else in this world. I always have and I always will, you just didn’t realise. I don’t need to sympathise or empathise with you, I just know.

Navigating Relationships through Health Hiccups

This time 8 years ago Harlan and I were on a plane to Australia. We had adventure under our feet and the vast unknown ahead. Here I reflect on navigating relationships, especially with chronic health hiccups in the picture.

Please tell me…

Today, just hold me. Gently take my head and rest it on your soft warm chest. Let me hear your heart beat and know that I’m home. Let me breathe in the smells of that comfort. I don’t know what to do next. I don’t know what to think.

The Desperation to be ‘Fixed’!

Desperation was my driving force, my momentum for the first 2 ½ years on this journey with a fistula. Every possibility, every magic pill, potion and lotion I would dive at it, desperation fuelling my direction, my hope. I searched, tirelessly for natural cures, balms, miracle stories on the internet and the next wonder worker in New Zealand, heck in the world. Then slowly a change happened…

The Fear Surrounding a Surgeon Appointment

Surgeons like performing surgery, and so asking them about anything that a) isn’t orthodox and b) isn’t about surgery, makes me feel nervous. Sometimes getting clear can make all the difference…

When your buttons are pushed…

When we react from a space of a pushed button, usually we simply fuel an equally out of control reaction from the other person and so we both get caught up in a whirpool of emotions, stories and events that are running us both and powering our respective buttons…

All these expectations

What does society expect of you? What do you expect from yourself? Are your expectations out of alignment with reality? Do you create expectations that are always higher and higher? Be gentle with yourself…

On the outside

A place we sometimes put ourselves without realising!

Am I doing enough?

Am I doing enough? I find myself questioning as I sit with my back against the wall in our bedroom gently tapping on my EFT points. This spiral of questioning hasn’t plagued me for a while…